one is (so not) the loneliest number

So tonight I was out to dinner with one of my co-workers (ironically, this is the only one that I complain about from time to time) who is the same age as I am and also single. The conversations that we had got me thinking and I finally came to the realization that I am fine being single. I am only 22, I still have plenty of time to find a man. Also I don't feel that I am in the right point of my life to start a serious relationship. If anything, I'm sure I could casually find the time to date someone but as far as establishing a serious relationship goes, I am already in one with my steno. Oh yes, that is what my machine looks like. It is a loaner from the school and hopefully we are getting our real ones soon! Anyway, back on topic. I don't think I want another relationship until I am done with school and working. I just will have my life settled by then and maybe I will be looking to settle down. Of course, if I happen to meet "the one" before then, I won't push him away. I am just no longer concerned or feeling that I am missing out because I am single. I figure that these are going to be the best years of my life, especially after I finish school, start working and have the money to do things that I want to. I without a doubt want to travel before settling down. Sure, traveling with your significant other would be fun but I want to do it with my friends mainly. I don't think I have to worry about not finding someone at my age. In five or so years, when I am inching closer to 30, THEN I will start to get concerned ;) I always told my cousin that if I am not married or in a serious relationship by my 30th birthday that she has to buy me my first cat. In all seriousness, I'll meet him when the time is right.

Not a Michael Buble person but this line definitely sums up how I feel -

"Wherever you are, whenever its right, you'll come out of nowhere and into my life"

Give me a few months, once it gets to the winter time I will definitely be longing for someone to cuddle up and stay in with during a snow storm.

challenge wednesdays

So I've decided to try something new, every Wednesday I am going to do a seven day long challenge. I will try and keep up with this and do a new one every week.

This week's challenge - GO SEVEN DAYS WITHOUT LOGGING ON TO facebook.

Now, I've been on FB for around five years now, back when it was just for college students and THEFACEBOOK.COM. Shows my age, huh? So this will be a little difficult. This includes next checking it on my phone either - THIS will be the real challenge!

Anyone wanna join me? Let's do it!

all these things that i've done

Thanks Christy!

BOLD what you have done in life.

1. started your own blog
2. slept under the stars
3. played in a band
4. visited Hawaii
5. watched a meteor shower
6. given more to charity than you could afford to
7. been to Disney
8. climbed a mountain
9. held a praying mantis
10. sung a solo
11. bungee jumped
12. visited Paris
13. watched a thunder and lightning storm
14. taught yourself an art from scratch
15. adopted a child
16. had food poisoning
17. walked to the top of the statue of liberty
18. grown your own vegetables
19. seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. slept on an overnight train
21. had a pillow fight
22. hitch hiked
23. taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. built a snow fort
25. held a lamb
26. gone skinny dipping
27. run a marathon
28. ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. seen a total eclipse
30. watched a sunrise or sunset
31. hit a home run
32. been on a cruise
33. seen Niagara falls in person
34. visited the birthplace of your ancestors (well, one side of the family!)
35. seen an Amish community
36. taught yourself a new language
37. had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. seen the leaning tower of Pisa in person
39. gone rock climbing
40. seen Michelangelo’s David in person
41. sung karaoke
42. seen old faithful erupt
43. bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant - I brought a homeless woman soup on a hot day
44. visited Africa
45. walked on a beach by moonlight
46. been transported in an ambulance - Not for me though
47. had your portrait painted
48. gone deep sea fishing
49. seen the Sistine chapel in person
50. been to the top of the Eiffel tower in Paris
51. gone scuba diving or snorkelling
52. kissed in the rain
53. played in the mud
54. gone to a drive-in theatre
55. been in a movie
56. visited the great wall of china
57. started a business
58. taken a martial arts class
59. visited Russia
60. served at a soup kitchen
61. sold girl scout cookies
62. gone whale watching
63. gotten flowers for no reason
64. donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. been sky diving
66. visited a concentration camp
67. bounced a check
68. flown in a helicopter
69. saved a favorite childhood toy
70. visited the Lincoln memorial
71. eaten caviar
72. pieced a quilt
73. stood in times square
74. toured the everglades
75. been fired from a job
76. seen the changing of the guard in London - NO but I've seen it at Arlington National Cemetery.
77. broken a bone
78. been a passenger on a motorcycle
79. seen the grand canyon in person
80. published a book
81. visited the Vatican
82. bought a brand new car
83. walked in Jerusalem
84. had your picture in the newspaper
85. kissed a stranger at midnight on new year’s eve
86. visited the white house
87. killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. had chickenpox
89. saved someone’s life
90. sat on a jury
91. met someone famous - realty TV star, close enough
92. joined a book club
93. gotten a tattoo
94. had a baby
95. seen the Alamo in person
96. swam in the great salt lake
97. been involved in a law suit
98. owned a cell phone
99. been stung by a bee
100. Ridden an elephant

(29/100) - Wow, I really have not lived!

Blogging, way cheaper than therapy.

I often think about how much I have to offer people and how I try so hard (I fail, sometimes) not to let them down. However, when it comes to myself, I see that I let myself down more often than not. I am without a doubt disappointed in many things I have done in the past. I was not motivated in high school and literally just made it. Its not that I am stupid, because I am not. Its that I lack the motivation and I don't try. Don't even get me started with college, that it is still a working progress five years later. I think of all the money and more importantly, the time that I have wasted and I cringe. I stayed with Tight Wad because I felt that maybe, just maybe if I stayed with him and treated him right, he would do the same for me. I stayed with Minute Man, thinking that if I showed him how good of a girlfriend I was capable of being, that he would be proud to call me his. All of these hard lessons have one thing in common, I was not letting myself succeed (or be happy). I can look back now and see that I honestly was not happy towards the end of things with both Tight Wad and Minute Man, why did I not just leave and let myself find happiness? Why didn't I just apply myself in high school and allow myself to get good grades and into a better school? And why, oh WHY didn't I just grin and bear it in college? No one wants to be in class, they just go and get it over with. I could have graduated last year with my classmates. I would have even settled for graduating this year with my friends!

Also, I need to stop dwelling on the past so much. This can't be too healthy either. I owe it to myself to succeed. I owe it to myself to walk away from situations with some dignity for once. My life is what I make of it. Granted, you cannot control everything that happens but you control how you react to it. If I somehow learned how to just breathe and take things for what they are, maybe things in my life will come together.

ANOTHER thing I need to stop doing is planning to fail. School especially because I know my past, I know that I start out strong and then lose my motivation. I am terrified not to succeed at this because it is my last resort. I cannot possibly go to another school after this. I cannot do this to myself or to my poor mother. I have been doing well so far but I am just praying that I don't lose the motivation and fail at yet another thing I try. I NEED TO GROW UP. I will be 23 in a few months and god damnit, I need to start acting like it. Part of the reason why I am failing is because of my immaturity. Sure, I am mature in some aspects of life, but this is a large one that I really need to improve on.

I am sure that there is some event from my childhood that can explain why I am the way I am today but I need to stop now. I have not practiced steno ALL weekend and will most likely be lost tomorrow.

hey lets sign this waiver so we can be on MTV!

So last night I ended up going to fushimi with V, our PM (person who brought our class into the sorority) and two other girls. They have $1 drinks from 12-1 every Thursday night and I have always been meaning to go. MTV has been filming this new show called Bridge and Tunnel which is kind of like the new Jersey Shore only its about Staten Island people who recently graduated college and are looking to make it big. So of course they have to be filming there the one week I go. So the place was filled to the brim with your typical Staten Island douchebags, including Angelina from Jersey Shore. I actually went to college with one of the people being filmed so just as I love watching Jersey Shore, I will be tuning into Bridge and Tunnel as well. It was just really refreshing to hang out with some girls that I normally don't see as often and I love getting all dolled up and going out. The fact that Fushimi has AMAZING sangria certainly did not hurt it. Just our luck, one of the retards happen to try to have a drunken conversation with us, so they ambushed us to sign waivers so if MTV airs that particular moment they wouldn't have to blur our faces.

So as I was there of course I was people watching and I claim to the conclusion that I am a well-dressed fat girl! I am being dead serious, I looked cute last night with jeans that fit me and a shirt that flattered me. I was not showing any of my bad areas, AKA stuff that NO ONE, myself included, wants to see. I saw girls that were my size and wore ridiculous things. My favorite one for the night was a teal, satin, SKIN TIGHT tank top. Its not about not having confidence, its about knowing what looks right.

Also, I got to thinking... I am WAY too tired of being fat. I mean I do have some confidence, I am fine talking with guys and I love going out with friends but I am sure my confidence will improve if I was thinner. I was thinking of doing Jenny Craig because I've heard of people being successful on but I'm not sure, it is really expensive and didn't Kirstie Alley like gain ALL of that weight back!? I don't know, I just need to do something and I need it to be strict because if I have too much freedom, I will screw up.

House Keeping!

So since I've stopped abandoning this blog I decided to do some house-keeping. I cleaned up my tags, since I had like 10 million of them and just over all made it more "reader friendly". So, enjoy! Welcome to the new followers that I have! You might want to check out the links on the side to get a better idea of who I am and where I am coming from.

Today was Teacher Appreciation Day and since two of my three teachers for today were not going to be in, I took a mental health day! It was so great to wake up at 9 as opposed to 5:30 and I truly feel relaxed and refreshed.

No real updates in my life at the moment, its been a crazy week but my weekend has started so I will definitely update on what happens!

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LUUUUCCYYYY... You got some 'splainin to do

When I was younger I was OBSESSED with I Love Lucy to the point that it was annoying. I would watch the show EVERY night on Nick at Nite and would run around quoting funny things that Lucy had said. I was an odd child, to put it lightly. I was a poorly-socialized only child who craved attention and always wanted to make people laugh. At nearly 23, you can still say the same thing about me. Only, I have much better social skills and am a LOT less annoying now (although I do have my moments).

I was killing time online before and found out that there is a musuem dedicated to Lucy and Desi. It is in Jamestown NY, which is Lucille Ball's hometown. The website also includes a list of Lucy-related places to visit. Only problem is, its a good seven hours away so this trip will most likely require a weekend. I don't care though, my list of things-to-do has clearly been updated!

A small update on the prospects from eHarmony - Bachelor #1 actually tried to impress me by knowing where Vinny from the Jersey Shore's "crib" was (YES, HE ACTUALLY SAID CRIB!) so yeah, kind of a turn-off. Bachelor #2 (met through a co-worker) is on a cruise (LUCKY FUCK) and Bachelor #3 (guy from Boston) told me he was going to call me tonight but did not - so he might not be that into me. Eh, oh well.

BACK TO LUCY! I leave you with one of my ALL time favorite Lucy moments. This scene actually held the record at the time for the longest studio audience laugh.

cause he's still preoccupied with 19, 19, 1999

So, so far eHarmony has not been THAT bad. I have a handful of prospects lined up, all of which seem... promising. This entry (and title) is going to be dedicated to bachelor #1, a salesman who also lives in Staten Island. We were matched on Saturday and went through the usual motions (guided communication) that eHarmony has to offer and eventually we made it through to emails and now text messaging. He is physically attractive, however he is my height, something that I usually do not go for. Still, he does seem really nice.

There is just one, slight issue. He is a few years older than me which is NO big deal but the language he uses kind of turns me off. For example, yesterday we were talking about random things and he totally went off topic and exclaimed that whole foods was "da bomb". Now I'm sure that I once had a Lisa Frank folder or two with J.T.T. IS THE BOMB written on it but then again it 1995 and I was EIGHT. Also, he guessed which bank I work for (when he said how it became obvious) and mentioned the ever-so-wonderful Penny Arcade. I LOATHE Penny, especially after having to deep clean her today. He then went on to say "I hate those peeps (UM HOLY SHIT... PEEPS?!) who come in with the huge water bottle", referring to the customers who come in with a plastic water jug filled with coins. Oh dear, eHarmony. What have you done?!

Needless to say, I'm no longer excited about this one. Also one of his "can't stands" is a girl who is judgemental... LOL is all I have to say about that one. I am going to give this one a shot though because really, what is there to lose? If anything, it will probably make for a fabulous story. Stay tuned...

two brunettes walk into a bar

So last night did not quite go as planned. Originally I had wanted to go to the city for fleet week but B's parent's really were not having it because of how often she goes to the city. So instead we decided to do dinner and drinks in Brooklyn. We went to the Chipshop in Park Slope. B had been there before but I never had. I've seen it mentioned on the food network before - EVERYTHING IS FRIED! They boast that they will fry anything that you bring and one of their desserts (double fried cherry pie) has been banned by the NYC health department. They ain't kiddin' around here.

So after we clogged our arteries we decided to head for a bar to get a drink. Park Slope is a real yuppy area and 5th Ave kind of resembles the city. The parking spot that I got ridiculously lucky with was in walking distance of numerous bars/restaurants. After going in/out of a few dead bars (even though it is a holiday weekend, it was still a Sunday night) we settled for Perch Cafe which was having an open mic night. B and I were so out of place, it was all that "Bohemian Chic" style and everyone just seemed very "earthy", for lack of a better word. There was a woman sitting on a stool with her acoustic guitar singing Ace of Base songs while a crowd of Birkenstock clad women just nodded there heads and cheered her on. It was something out of a movie for me, just very different from what I am used to. We had a few laughs though and they had a few board games (Connect Four, Life...) on a shelf so I definitely would not mind stopping in again.

So call me a moron but temptation got the best of me and I just HAD to see what my matches on eHarmony looked like so I subscribed for a six month membership at $15 a month. Oh dear, I have a feeling this is just going to be a huge waste of money. I already have a possible date in the works though. He's from Staten Island and works in sales. Only issue is, he lists himself as 5'5"... I AM 5'5"!! That's a trend I am noticing on eHarmony, its the land of the short men. Oh well, at least this will be interesting.