Whaddup New Layout!

So along with changing the name/theme of this blog I have changed my layout as well. Some may have seen the adorable one that I was using yesterday but I had mucho trouble editing it so this will have to do. I will get around to maybe making a header eventually.

I have a final in 15 minutes so I am cutting this short. I also have finals the rest of this week (plus work) so I most likely will not be posting. Bring on the pumpkin spice lattes with multiple espresso shots&pulling 1/2 nighters. I cannot BELIEVE that this semester is over already!

GTKY Sunday because flickr is taking a year and a day

Out of sheer boredom I decided to par-take in another Getting to Know You Sunday. That and Flickr is taking a year to upload all of my pictures. Without further ado, here are my answers!



1. If you accidently knick a car in a parking lot..Do you leave a note or do you get the heck out of there?
Depends on how bad it is. If I just hit the car while getting in/out of mine, I just walk away and justify it as they had it coming for parking so close to the line.

2. Love your body or plastic surgery?
Plastic surgery, no questions asked. Yes, I am a vain bitch.

3. What about your favorite blog(s) continues to drive you back?
Definitely the content and the blogger's ability to tell a story.

4. What percent of your blog is BS just to make your life seem more interesting than it really is?
5% BS and 95% real. This is probably the main reason for my disappearing followers/low readership. I need to either find a more interesting life or learn how to make up better stories.

5. If you had to give up one type of meat for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Pork. I just don't like the consistency of it.

6. How often to you eat out?
Too often. It is where all of my money goes.

7. Skinny jeans or boot cut jeans?
Boot cut. I am far too fat for skinny jeans.

8. If you caught your spouse cheating would you forgive, divorce, or plan your kill?
ONE OF MY GREATEST FEARS IN LIFE. I am hoping that I would access the situation first before doing something. However, this would probably destroy the trust and without trust you cannot have a happy marriage so there is no "stay together for the kids" situation. I would rather my children growing up in a split family than seeing an unhappy marriage.

A permanent change...

So I'm not sure if you've noticed but I totally re-named this blog, again. I think this one is a keeper though. However, since changing it I have lost two followers so either a) they did not recognize the name/blog and got rid of it or b) my writing it shit and sucks and I suck. Unfortunately, it is probably the latter. When I have the free time I will definitely try to make a new header/fix my layout so that everything matches.

I went on a ginormous shopping spree at Lane Bryant and for the most part I am pretty set as far as fall clothes are concerned. I also decided to "Fall clean" (thanks to my blogger crush for that term) my room and got about as far as my closet. I cleaned out all of the shelves that are in my closet and dumped everything out onto my bed. It look horrifying and the mound was as tall as me. So then I went to Bed Bath and Friggin Beyond and purchased a shitload of organization canvas baskets. I threw out so much stuff, things that I forgot that I even owned. I've always been good about throwing things out though, I am sentimental yet practical. And just too much of a neat freak for my own good. After dirt-deviling my shelves (a necessary thing) I sorted everything into bins by categories and 5 hours, 10 bins and 2 HUGE garbage bags later, I was done. I have never felt so accomplished in my life. Next up? My drawers. My drawers are a disaster area and I have so much wasted space. I probably would be able to fit all of clothes in my room if I just organized my drawers. I guess I will leave that and finally finishing my bedroom (decorating) for the full week that I am off. I took off of work that week too because well fuck, I earned it! I am so damn proud of myself after this semester and the fact that I managed to do well at my job at the same time (something I have never done) that I might as well have a party.

Speaking of parties... I have decided what I am going to do for my 23rd birthday - go to Jose Tejas! For those unfortunate enough not to know what that is, it is basically a Tex-Mex restaurant that is not only cheap but the food is amazing! I had a really hard time with the facebook invite for this lol. I did not want to cause drama by leaving people out but lets just say that I hope that not everyone shows up.

I've decided that September 1st will bring forth many permanent changes in my life. I will not smoke anymore. Its mainly just a stress thing but its really not healthy for me and plus its disgusting. I will also try to exercise and definitely monitor/control my eating. Of course September 17 will be the exception but I just really want to change my life. Succeeding in work and school really gave me the feeling that I truly can do anything if I put my mind to it. Lets just hope that I can maintain this burst of energy/motivation that I seem to have. If anything, I always have this blog to help me with it.

Santa rides a bike and Elvis has clearly never left this building

Well last week was filled with more drama than I would ever like to be present. On Friday, an alumni member on my tree had a BBQ and invited a whole bunch of active girls, including their absentee president. I saw a lot of girls that I have not seen all summer and at one point I actually felt like I was Don Corleone on the day of my daughter's wedding because I kept having private (drama filled) conversations with girls off to the side. First up, my twin! I have not seen/spoken to her since the beginning of the summer so it was just really good to catch up with her. She is someone that I feel that I could trust and I just loved catching up with her. Next was my little, unfortunately this conversation was not so successful. She just denied everything and made it seem like people were spreading all of these rumors about her. Now, I'm sure that some of what I heard was exaggerating but I cannot believe that everything was a lie. I'm just even more disappointed in her because she did not own up to ONE thing. I would have had a lot more respect for her if she did. I guess she truly is not who I thought she was. The next up, my poor little little! Basically she never felt that she had a big to begin with so she really does not know what to miss. I told her how I would always be there for her and she could come to me no matter what. Saturday was the meeting and not much happened there. Just the president giving a huge sob story about her life and promising to do better next term. They did make some changes though regarding the elections for next semester, which might change things for the better. Unfortunately, my little did not attend this meeting. Instead she felt it necessary to play jenga (or so I've been told) with a girl in another sorority. Now, the sorority has not had a meeting in months and you were under the impression that your president was either going to step down or be impeached, isn't this a meeting that you feel would be important to attend? Seriously, I do not get it...

So Saturday night after the meeting me, Z and B went into the city to celebrate B's 23rd birthday. We went to the Trailer Park Lounge in Chelsea and it was kind of hysterical. The place looks like a legit trailer park, complete with a mobile home right in the middle of the bar. We had a good time and drank terribly strong margaritas. Since we did not eat dinner, we decided to get something at the bar and the food was just as trash-tastic. I had (burnt) mac and cheese and tater tots and felt like a kid again. The decor was also amazing. It was as if they raided every garage sale on the east coast for the tackiest shit that they could find. My favorites included the random displaced Christmas decorations click and Santa ridin' dirty click. Also, there was Elvis memorabilia EVERYWHERE. Since Z needed to leave early I caught a ride home with her (I had work the next morning) and was in bed by 2 - no hangover for me at work!

I'm definitely glad that I got to spend a lot of time with my sorority sisters this week but next time I would like to do so, minus the drama. Tonight I am most likely closing and then going for coffee with my big and twin!

Z and I have decided that on September 1 (next week!) we are going to join Weight Watchers. I cannot tell you how many times I have joined but I seriously want to make a change in my life. Let's just hope I follow through with it this time ...

Sunday GTKY

Join in Getting to know YOU

1. If you could host a Reality TV show, which one would it be?

Top Chef. Although I'd probably be the size of a manatee from all of that food!

2. Do you put your seatbelt on before or after you start the car?

After.

3. Shave or hair removal cream?

Shave/wax. I had a bad experience when I naired my eyebrows and lost half of one, the day before my Confirmation. Oh yes, I was always a bright one.

4. What's your favorite feature in a house?

Kitchen and bathroom.

5. What is your favorite "Fall" scent?

Pumpkin spice :)

6. What tv show are you looking forward to seeing the most this Fall??

I really don't have (or at least I can't think of anything) that I watch during the fall. However, there is a show premiering on HBO called Boardwalk Empire that I am looking forward to.

7. Personal Shopper or Personal Chef?

Chef, without a doubt.

8. What is the first word that comes to mind when you think of "Fall"?

MANY THINGS! Crisp, cool weather, beautiful leaves, pumpkin spice lattes and um, MY BIRTHDAY !!! Yes, fall is my favorite season and it is sooo close!

Soo.. like I promised in my last entry, real update coming! I will make it tomorrow during class since well, I'm usually bored out of my mind in it. EVENTFUL weekend that was both good and bad.

The best I could come up with at this time...

Soo this one is going to be a quickie ... -_- ok, I guess I need to get laid.

Anyway, you might have noticed a new blog title in your reader - Don't fret, it's just me :)

I'm not 100% thrilled with this name and I'm a little thrown off now because I actually have a frequently used tag with this exact title. I don't know. I have a name that I like better but I'm told that it is not "original" enough to be the title of my blog. Seriously I wish I was more creative sometimes.

Also... See my header? I made that using Paint Shop Pro when I had my old laptop. Since I know have a mac (sticks nose in air), I have NO idea what similar program I could use. What do you guys use?

Real post coming later, promise :)

Idk, my bff Angel?

Yesterday I ended up taking a mental health day and Dora did as well! We had a much needed bonding day where we both spent way too much money. We started out small, getting our nails done and for the first time in a very long time, I got tips. They are very short because I cannot type with long nails. This is just so they don't break/chip and I actually really like them. Then we turned our madness over to the state of New Jersey and things started to get a little funny.

We first went to Marshalls where I found a cute little trunk for my room and OMG!? my favorite Kathy Van Zeeland wallet but in ZEBRA. So of course I had to fucking buy it. Omg, amazing and only $20. I'm in love. Who needs a man? Seriously, a vibrator and my Visa (credit card that is, not a document stating that I am allowed to be in this country) are all I need to get by. If needed, I'll adopt a baby from Korea because they are adorable. Ok, back to my post...

We then ventured over to Chevy's and that is where the fun began. Dora and I frequent Chevy's to the point of us recognizing (and they do us as well) host/wait staff. Yesterday we had a waiter that I had never seen before. Enter Angel... Instead of my making up a name I will just use his drag queen pseudonym. Angel came over to our table while Dora was in the bathroom and DIED over my wallet (I had a tendency to change wallets/sort receipts at the table at restaurants) and I knew right then and there, that this was love. You see, I need a gay best friend. I need a man who is just a big of a bitch as I am to give me advice. He could make fun of others with me and then turn around and bring me back down to earth when I'm freaking over some asshole that is in my life. I want a boy that I could go shopping with (since my style tends to err towards the side of flamboyant), stare at hot guys with and of course, to go out and make fun of less fortunate looking people with. I definitely need a man like that in my life. I was thinking of posting an ad for one on craigslist and seeing how far that gets me. So for the entire meal Dora and I sat there trying to figure out how we would convince Angel to join our wolfpack. You see, I've never asked a man out before, much less a gay one so I was very nervous. We ended up telling him how fabulous he was and asking him out. He works at deko in Jersey (think the cast of Jersey Shore, going there when they were underage) and gave us his number so maybe one day we might pay him a visit, (hopefully) get drunk for free and then see who can stand on one foot while touching their nose to determine who drives home.

Today I am meeting up with B for lunch since she has an interview this morning in midtown and then after school I have a training class at work and afterwards I will be attending a much needed bitchfest with some more of my favorite sorority sisters. I will be seeing some girls that I have not seen in way too long and I cannot wait for that!

Oh, I need some advice! Since my skin thinks that I am 12 and not 22, I have a slight situation regarding blemishes/mild acne. Ten years ago I would have used proactive to treat this but since that stuff does have an expiration date, I have nothing on hand. I was thinking of trying Zeno since the ads featuring Whitney Port managed to grab my attention. I also basically have spots/giant random pimples so a spot treatment like that seems best. Has anyone tried this?! Does it work!? Please comment, regardless if you follow/normally read me or not! Thank you so much!

Here's to the person that I thought you were...

Have you ever had that person in your life who you were always proud of? Even though you are not as close as you once were with this person, you always tried to be there for them in anyway possible. My little and I are not as close as we could be but I mainly blame our age difference (she's 20) and thought we would probably hang out more next year when we could get in the same places. She always knew how proud I was of her and that I would be there for her no matter what. Back when we were picking who we wanted, I ended up loosing this one girl to a girl who had the pick before I did. I was crushed but happy once I got to know my little, realizing how similar we were. I guess this summer just changed that all ...

Yesterday as I was clocking out of work I got a call from one of the younger girls on my tree who I adore. She is graduating early and is interested in running for president this winter and calls me, as an older girl, for advice. I knew something was wrong when I picked up and she yelled "I hate your little and (another girl)" - two girls who are not only on her family tree but her pledge sisters as well. For two hours I sat in the parking lot at work listening to the havoc that these girls have wrecked this summer. From causing un-necessary drama with a sister whose father just unexpectedly passed away to sleeping with a guy that another sister was hooking up with, there just seems to be no end in sight. I just feel terrible for her little (my little-little) because now apparently they hate each other. I am not close with my big so I always wanted them to be close with each other. Not only this but there is also drama surrounding the president, or lack thereof and how she was doing her best to ruin everything that I had once stood for. It has gotten so bad that the active girls have not had a meeting (or community service event) since June and we even have a member of the Executive Board thinking about resigning. I have seen the sorority in its highs and lows and this is by far the worse that I have seen. There is a meeting next week that me and some other alumni members are going to attend because there is a lot that is going to happen and be discussed there.

I am definitely not getting as involved as I used to and frankly, I was not going to get involved at ALL (aside from giving advice) but this concerns my little and I feel as though I have to be there. I will still give my little the benefit of the doubt and hear her out but hearing this was just very shocking. Obviously she is not innocent in this but I think that she has been provoked this summer. I will still be there for her if she needs me, I am just very disappointed in her.

Anyway, I ended up meeting up with the girl I was on the phone with and a few other girls that my little apparently terrorized this summer (they are all best friends) and I lost my True Blood virginity! I was very lost but I liked it enough to watch the next episode/catch up on this season.

On Saturday Ice Crotch and I trekked out to Whole Foods which is my favorite store to shop at. We got a lot of healthy things and I plan on cooking for the week so I might be able to get on the right track as far as eating is concerned. My semester is also winding down and my classes for the fall are all confirmed so it seems like this might be a great week coming up. This is good because this weekend was horrible!

Oh and BTW, I made a Tumblr and you can find it here. It basically will be a 365 Project but I just did two posts to "test" it out so I will definitely try to start that today. If I cannot take a picture I will definitely post a quote or something that sums up my day. All of my pictures have to come from my phone since the software for my camera ONLY works on a PC (WTF!!?! Anyone else have this issue?!) so they won't be high quality.

Deep down inside we all want the same thing

... More followers, that is. So I've decided to join the Follow Friday over at Still on the Verge.

If you want to join up as well, here is her button -

it took almost 23 years but i think i figured something out

So today is August 10th (almost the middle of August) which means that my birthday is in exactly five weeks. Wow, 23 years old. Oddly enough I am not as upset as I was when I turned 22. All I could think about was how I was no longer 21 and starting to get older. What really depressed me though was that I was turning 22, had a minimum wage job where I was given only 8 hours a week and was basically in my sophomore year of college. There is nothing wrong with being 22 however, there is something wrong with being 22 and having the same lifestyle of a 19 year old. THAT is what I was being faced with. As I read back to the posts that I wrote around New Year's I can see that I just wanted this year to be different. I wanted to free myself from being trapped with the life of a 19 year old. I know that I have messed up in the past but I needed it to stop holding me back in the future. Hell, even six months ago I would not think that I would be where I am right now. I was not even hired at the bank yet, much less a court reporting student. I just feel like so much has changed in my life and for the better.

I am actually looking forward to my job. I have a decent paying job that I love and make good money and I am doing very well in school. I'm finally on my way to being in adult and I truly feel happy with life. It would be lovely to have a boyfriend, I'm sure but at least the more important aspects of my life are being taken care of.

This gets me to the main idea of this post. I have two years until my 25th birthday. Now THAT is scary. I do have a few goals that I would like to accomplish before that. By my 25th birthday - I would like to have graduated and be a freelance court reporter. This is VERY possible. Also, I want to have lost all the weight I want to/be healthy and be in the middle of training for the 2012 NYC Marathon. This I'm not so sure if it is possible. I mean, it could happen. Whether or not it is possible is entirely up to me. I would love for it to happen though, I am not getting younger and I am sure eventually my health will catch up with me. I just want every part of my life to be complete and just how getting job and finally figuring out what I wanted to do with my life have helped, I feel this will as well. Since I am terrible at dieting, I am just going to start with making smarter choices, such as not drinking soda anymore and not eating out as much. Its not that I eat poorly, I just do not exercise in any way, shape or form. Since the dog loves going out maybe I should just stop making excuses and start small with that? I mean, something is better than nothing, which is what I am currently doing. I am so proud of myself for all I have done in these past six months, I want to be able to look back in two years at all I have been able to accomplish with this as well.

I just hope I could finally figure out something that I can stick with.

Getting to Know You (AKA I'm just bored in class)

So I decided to do the Getting to Know You thing with MannLand because I am bored in class lol. If you want to participate as well, go to that site and just post/link up!

1. Do you think mustaches are sexy?
Not in the least bit! I don't find facial hair sexy, period.

2. What's the last concert you've been to?
*NSYNC - No Strings Attached tour in 2001. I tried changing this and going to a Lady Gaga one this summer but I was unable to get tickets.

3. What was your favorite 80s sitcom?
I was only 3 when the 80's ended. Would Roseanne count?! It did premiere in the 80's and was one of my favorite shows when I was younger.

4. Were you named after anyone?
Yes, my daddy. His name was Nicholas Joseph and my name is Nikki Jo.

5. When you buy new clothes, do you wash before wearing?
Only jeans and bras/underwear.

6. If you didn't blog what would you do with your spare time?
Probably FaceBook so THANK GOD for this blog lol.

7. What is your favorite department store?
Definitely Macy*s, they have EVERYTHING!

8. If you were to get laser hair removal, where would you get it?
Would it be possible to get your um, who-hah hair laser removed? If so, definitely that!

a blog with no name...

So I still have not come up with an appropriate title or theme for my blog. I have had a few ideas but the consensus was that they were not going to work. I don't know how people have come up with these great names or have made those cute little cartoon-like headings. I just don't feel like "A Single Girl in the City..." is the best way to describe what is written in this blog. Granted, I mention living a single life and dabbling into the dating world and promiscuity but that is not what it I am all about. I am many things, mainly a girl who has a fucked up sense of humor, and is a neurotic nut-case who overreacts to any and everything that happens in her life. I'm a complete mess but at the same time, I have my shit together (for now). I am way to sensitive for my own good and the good of anyone who is involved in my life. I swear a lot and have an uncanny way of wording things. I am also the dumbest brunette one would ever meet. Just yesterday I asked a co-worker if a cardboard box was recyclable. Yet at the exact same time I will reference things such as the First Battle of Saigon and an Amish teen's Rumspringa in everyday language. If I cannot put a label on myself or my personality, how the hell am I supposed to put one on a blog that is about my life?

Perhaps I am thinking way too much into this ...

Anyway, back to our regularly scheduled programming... Yesterday Ice Crotch and I took Marathoner out for her birthday. We went to Arirang and afterwards I went over Marathoner's to keep her company as she packed up her room. Next month her and her husband are moving back to Pennsylvania, for good. It did not really hit me until seeing her pack her closet. We did not really see each other often because of conflicting schedules but now it is going to be even harder now that she is not living two blocks away. Of course I am sad about this but I do realize that it is the best for her and her family. i just feel like it is so sudden. I knew that it was a possibility but down the road, not in 5 weeks. I was fine yesterday but I know I probably am going to lose it as it comes closer and closer. She is one of those people that I know are always going to be in my life. She is not only my sorority sister but she is one of my very best friends. I was in her wedding and I know that she will be in mine. As we danced at her wedding, I told her that I would bring my kids up to visit her and her kids in PA. and I meant that. I really cannot say that many people in my life will be here forever, so when I do say it, you best believe I mean it.

So, tell me about one of those special people in your lives!

this used to be my playground

So last night after work I drove to Brooklyn to meet up with S, my high school friend. I have not seen her since last August when we went on a double date with her boyfriend and Minute Man. It was so nice to see her and being at her house was just a throwback to my high school years. We went for dinner at this Turkish restaurant named Sahara and it was amazing. Definitely something different and I would so go back there. Then we went back to her house and watched Jersey Shore. After that we FaceBook stalked like pretty much everyone we used to hang out with lol. It was great to see her and reminisce about our best and worst moments. I actually logged into my old LiveJournal that I kept around that time. It was embarrassing lol, I was such a little brat. Apparently I also had yet to learn how to form a correct sentence, because my writing was terrible. Too bad GreatestJournal is no longer around because that would have been even more embarrassing to read. I definitely want to do a post about my unique high school experience. Maybe I will do it later since I am not going out tonight (work early tomorrow) and I now have a printer/scanner. I would do things so much differently in high school but I will definitely go more into that one later. It will be nice to have a relaxing night home, I can get to bed early and be nice and refreshed for work tomorrow.

One of my favorite memories (to look back on) with S and her sister M was one night when we went bowling with S, her then-boyfriend, M, and my first boyfriend (lets call him G). We walked back to G's house after bowling and waited for car service. I guess taking car service was like the big thing to do in Brooklyn when you weren't old enough to drive yet. The car service came and took me, M, and S back to their house. In front of us on 18th Ave there was a really drunk guy who kept swerving and after he had almost caused an accident with us twice, our driver started to honk at him. Unfortunately we were caught at a red light with drunkie. He got out of his car and proceeded to beat the dickens out of our driver, while we were in the back seat of the car. M was trying to call the police, S was trying to see the guy's plate numbers and I (like a retard) was trying to open the locked doors (that had no push button thingee) and get us out of there. Thank God the drunk guy got back into his car and drove away. All would have been fine but the car service driver started to chase after him, with three, screaming sixteen year old girls in the car with him telling him to stop. Finally, we made it back to their house, alive and the driver still had the nerve to charge us for the ride. While yes, that was terrifying at the time its one of those things that we laugh now as we look back. Just like the time when we ended up getting searched by the cops. A story that is great to look back on...

I will definitely make a post later with a story or two that actually were funny then and are now as well.

Does anyone else have a slight-brush-with-death story that they now look back on and giggle at?

and after all of this I still paint my nails like I did when I was five

Yesterday I decided to paint my nails myself since the manicure that I had paid for had chipped within 24 hours. Much to my dismay, my fingers resembled an art project that I might have done back in Kindergarten. You know, the projects that were an utter disaster yet your mom still hung up on the fridge, beaming with pride? Except I am not beaming with pride right now, I still have polish on certain fingers but at least it is a lot less noticeable.

Many things have changed since I was 5, Chelsea Clinton was a little girl at her father's side during his campaign and now she's a married woman whose wedding was the hottest ticket in town, Zack Morris' cellphone was the hottest thing ever (Fuck that, HE was the hottest thing ever), and staying up later than 9PM was something that I would give anything to do. Of course I have definitely changed in more personal ways, I still had a father and a grandfather, was at a normal weight for my age, had un-pieced ears, and my biggest care in the world was if they were going to play man-hunt that night after dinner. I feel that I have done a lot of growing up in this past year, especially within the last few months. I finally figured out, at age 22, what I wanted to do with my life and now I am taking the steps to get there. I am trying to learn how to take the stick out of my ass (drinking helps with this, a lot) and just let loose and live life.

SO my blogging idol Carrie Bradshaw is Full of Shit (oh and by the way, she does not actually know that she is my idol. It's more like a secret admirer type of thing.. She should start expect anonymous flowers and notes soon) had declared this the Summer of Single for her, which basically helped me put a title on what is going on with my life right now. This is the first summer that I have been truly single. Truly meaning I have not had a boy to love/care about/cry over. Summer 2005 (I was 17) I was crying over my first ex. Summers 2006-2008 (18-20) were spent either in love with or crying over Tight Wad and summer 2009 (21) I dated Minute Man for its entirety. Summer 2010 (22), I have not had to deal with any bullshit that comes with having a man in my life and by George, it has been FABULOUS! A little boring, but fabulous.

While I am deliriously happy that I have been able to avoid clinging onto any guy I find for his attention, I am a little disappointed in myself. One would think that the theme song for this summer would be PROMISCUOUS GIRL but sadly, it has not. I think part of that has to do with having the stick up my ass. Well, at least something is up there but that's not what I would have imagined. A few weeks ago I started talking to this guy who shall be referred to as Jack of All Trades and basically we set it up to be a strictly sex thing. Sounds fun, right? Except we I have yet to plan a date for this. He is really good looking, just a tad older (like he probably watched Sesame Street when it first premiered) so mother would definitely not approve of him. Besides, I really don't want an older man. However, age does equal experience when a man is just that good looking so maybe I could be his little student? I mean if you want to start learning how to have casual sex (yes, that is something that I have to learn how to do), isn't it best to start off with a man who knows what he is doing? Who is to say that I will actually go through with this though? I'm surprised I actually went through with meeting the Security Guard.

Oh well, small steps I guess. Maybe learning how to be promiscuous is the next stage in growing up for me?

I wanna be a stenographer, so freakin' bad.

I just checked my dashboard and wow, I have 30 followers? That's freakin' amazing! I feel like the little writer that could over here. Well, Willkommen! I hope you enjoy your stay!

I have a few things to look forward to in the near future -

Thursday: After work I am going over my high school friend's house. She's probably the only girl I graduated with that I am still friendly with. If you went to my high school (doesn't matter what year), you would understand this. She called me yesterday and we spent an hour or so catching up and made plans to have a Degrassi marathon. I spent many of my weekends at her house and we would watch the show religiously so it will definitely be a blast from the past.
Friday/Saturday: Not sure yet but I best be hanging out with Dora at least one day!
Monday: I GET MY NEW MACHINE!! Seriously I think you have to be a court reporting student to understand how major (fuck I need to stop watching Rachel Zoe) this is. I will definitely post pictures of my current loaner machine/new machine so you can get a visual. Also, I get the results back for the test that I am taking today so I'm sort of excited/nervous for that as well.

I will also be registering for classes next semester so I'm excited for that as well. (yes, shut up! I'm a fucking nerd!) It kind of sucks though, since I transferred in a lot of my credits I am done with all of my general requirements. Since I'm technically ahead, many of the classes that I need to take I cannot because they don't fit into schedule with the level I am in. The way that it looks, I can only take Medical and Legal terminology (two separate classes) and my steno class next semester. The school highly recommends that I do not take those classes together because they each require a lot of memorization. However, I am not only taking two classes next semester (recommended is three), that is just plain ridiculous. I'd rather take the difficult classes when I am still in the easier levels of steno that do not require me to practice at home for hours on end. Lets face it, if I am trying to build up my speed, I am not going to want to memorize medical terms for some class.

Sorry, that was a paragraph that not many (if any) of you will understand. Looks like I am going to have even less free time next term. OH what ever will the Security Guard do?! Speaking of which, I still have not heard from either boy and I am being completely honest when I say that I do not care. I am going to enjoy being single for as long as I can so bring on the drunken hookups/shameless behavior! Bring on those nights when you are freezing in bed and only have your pillow or pet to cuddle up to and those flowers that I will not be receiving on my birthday/Valentine's Day. I guess each side has their pros and cons but right now, this is what works best for me.

I'm thinking of doing a Way Back Wednesday post today! Please leave me any ideas of what to do it on! Thank you!

If you ever felt that I was normal, I am here to prove you wrong.

Seriously! I feel that I am so wishy-washy right now when it comes to these two guys. Usually I am one of those girls who craves male attention, to the point that I receive an instant high from it. Right now, I have two guys who I am attractive to, that are interested in me. The needy psychopath inside of me is just beaming and jumping for joy but on the outside? I am calm and as cool as a cucumber. Maybe I am growing older? Being more selective? Not sure but I think this change might be for the better. Maybe I'll finally learn how to separate sex from emotions? That IS on my Knot List, along with dating two men simultaneously. Also, I just checked that list and with the purchase of the new MacBook (last time I mention this thing, I promise) I have doubled my credit card debt. Womp, womp.

I also feel that I may have valid reasons (other than just being a psychotic whore) to not have a high level of excitement over either guy. Electric Man for one has canceled twice 1/2 times on me already (I'll explain the 1/2 in one minute) for our first date/meetup and we've been talking for over a month already. There is just so much attraction/excitement that you can build over emails and texts and I think that we maxed that out within the first week of speaking. Long story short, it faded a little (on my end at least) but I feel that given these circumstances, it was natural. To think, I was excited about this one too! Now, the Security Guard did something last night that really put me off. We started talking sometime last week (I'd like to say Wednesday) and had our first date/meetup on Friday. All went well, said we would definitely do it again. I had fake plans this weekend because I felt that we were not at that level yet where I give up both of my weekend plans for you. Plus I did make tentative plans with Dora that ended up falling through so its not like I lied, I just twisted the truth a little. We texted more or less all day Saturday and all day Sunday and yesterday since I was busy I did not get to text him. I got home from school and went for mani/pedi/shopping/dinner/foolishness with Dora so when he ended up texting me at around 5 I did not get back to him until around 10 when I got home. We did the normal "Hey what's up?" and when I answered he simply stated "I feel like this is going nowhere." Now, of course I knew what he was referring to but I played a-loaf just for his sake, hoping that he really did not mean it. He feels that we are getting nowhere with this because I am busy or he's busy. Mind you, valid point, however... WE JUST MET ON FRIDAY. We met within three days. Its not like I pulled an Electric Man on him and had no time to speak to him/canceled three times already, I just did not text him back until five hours later. We had made tentative plans for Wednesday, which he then canceled because something with his friend needed him and ended with how he was going to be busy too next month when he started fire school. Ok, his point? Shit happens. Granted, I am a busy little bumble bee but I am probably one of the least busy people I know. So I explained that my life is going to be like this for a while, at least another two years and he never answered. Maybe he came to his senses and realized what a little needy bitch he was being?

Seriously, I am going to put on my ad Wanted: A man who has balls and is not a needy little bitch. See how much response I get from that one!

So over the weekend Electric Man and I had made tentative (and weather permitting) plans to go for a walk somewhere on the island. Dora had taken an impromptu sick day from work so we ended up going out. I have not seen her in almost a week so I was not holding out on my possible plans. I get a text from him at around 7 from him canceling again because he had to do something for work. He only gets a 1/2 though because technically I canceled first. He then explained that I caught him at the worst time and how his life is really hectic right now so I simply said to just let me know when it calms down a bit. See, I'm not crazy like the Security Guard, I cannot even imagine what he would have done in my shoes.

I just don't get how normally I would kill for this male attention, to the point of dropping our things (and people) to make plans with guys and do anything in the world to make sure they don't lose interest, which is really counter-productive when you think about it. I just feel like I don't know what I want anymore and that alone is something that is making me crazy.

So I guess my search continues...

bitches love my new MacBook, if they don't, fuckin' skanks

So I went and did something that is a little irresponsible, I purchased the MacBook. I needed a little help from my mother but now I finally have one! This is almost two and a half years in the making so this is a pretty big deal for me. Regrets? None whatsoever. Just ones from my unreliable internet connection. Overall, I am absolutely in love with this machine. It was so easy to set up and is very user friendly. It also came with a free ipod touch (which became my mother's birthday gift) and a printer (which they did not have in stock so I am buying at a later date). As a result of the shitty internet connection it took a while to set up her ipod but we finally were able to do it and now she is very happy and has one album already on it. Yeah, she gives me a lot of shit and is a royal pain in my ass but it was great to see her so happy. Now I want an ipod touch! I'll wait though to either Christmas or my birthday. I've seriously never been so happy to be in credit card debt though. I went ahead and purchased iWorks (which is compatible with the MS Office), a pink case (of course), some iTunes gift cards and a three year protection plan. I almost purchased the Sims 3 but decided not to. I cannot get obsessed with that game again! Between that and blogging I will never practice my machine again. I think I am officially a Mac now ... :)

In other news, things are going well with both men lol. This is so out of character for me! AH, another idea for the eHarmony guided communication question. I wonder if this one will scare him off? I have semi-concrete plans to meet up with both of them during the week. I guess I am just going to keep it casual for now and then change it when feelings do (or don't) develop. Oh hayyy, I think I might be crossing something else off of my Knot List.

Happy August! What does this mean? My birthday, end of the semester and FALL are almost here :)